Spilgtākie citāti no Andrē Asimana grāmatas “Find Me”


Kad uzzināju, ka rakstnieka Andrē Asimana populārākajam darbam Call Me By Your Name tiks izdots turpinājums, manī valdīja divējādas sajūtas, jo priecājos, ka pēc pirmās grāmatas saldsērīgā noslēguma atkal būs iespēja “satikt” Elio un Oliveru, bet vienlaicīgi apšaubīju šāda turpinājuma nepieciešamību, jo pirmā grāmata šķita ļoti pilnīga un spēcīga tieši ar savu sāpīgo, bet vienlaicīgi skaisto un neaizmirstamo noslēgumu. Grāmatas turpinājums Find Me ir tikai 260 lapaspuses biezs un sastāv no 4 daļām: pirmā ir no Elio tēva Samuela skatpunkta, otrā ir no Elio skatpunkta, trešā ir no Olivera skatpunkta, bet ceturtā atkal no Elio skatpunkta. Autors šajā darbā daudz runā par lielu gadu starpību attiecībās, mīlestības sarežģīto dabu, iekāri, ilgām un pēdām, kuras mūsos atstāj pagātnē satikti cilvēki. Arī šoreiz Asimans pieturējies pie sava saldsērīgā stila un, lai arī grāmatā netrūkst banāla salduma, par kuru nefanoju, to caurvij arī spēcīgs skumju pavediens, kas padara stāstījumu ļoti īstu. Vai šāds turpinājums bija vajadzīgs? Visticamāk, ka nē! Vai es to izbaudīju? Absolūti! No pirmās līdz pēdējai lapaspusei. 

Asimana valoda šajā grāmatā ir brīnišķīga – teksts plūst ļoti viegli, teikumi ir ārkārtīgi meistarīgi konstruēti un brīžiem man lasīšanas procesā nācās paņemt pārdomu pauzi, jo autora paustās domas mani uzrunāja dziļi personiski. Tieši tāpēc plašas atsauksmes vietā vēlos padalīties ar, manuprāt, spilgtākajiem Find Me citātiem, kas mani uzrunāja visspēcīgāk, lai arī jūs sajustu šī darba garšu bez riska uzdurties uz maitēkļiem, kas varētu sabojāt stāsta pirmatklāšanas prieku. 

“It’s just that the magic of someone new never lasts long enough. We only want those we can’t have. It’s those we lost or who never knew we existed who leave their mark. The others barely echo.” – 11. lpp.

“My sense is that one learns more about the blotchy makeup of human psychology from Dostoyevsky than from Freud, or any psychiatrist for that matter.” – 19. lpp.

“Aren’t those the absolute worst scenarios: the things that might have happened but never did and might still happen though we’ve given up hoping they could.” – 21. lpp.

“I can’t stand being by myself yet I can’t wait to be alone.” – 22. lpp.

“I don’t love the dog more than you. The dog is just easier to love” – 35. lpp.

“…some people smoke to put nicotine in their veins, others to put a cloud between them and others.” – 43. lpp.

“Basically, we don’t know how to think of time, because time doesn’t really understand time the way we do, because time couldn’t care less what we think of time, because time is just a wobbly, unreliable metaphor for how we think about life.” – 46. lpp.

“Some people may be brokenhearted not because they’ve been hurt but because they’ve never found someone who mattered enough to hurt them.” – 55. lpp.

“Each of us is like a moon that shows only a few facets to earth, but never its full sphere. Most of us never meet those who’ll understand our full rounded self. I show people only that sliver of me I think they’ll grasp. I show others other slices. But there’s always a facet of darkness I keep to myself.” – 84. lpp.

“Perhaps he’d seen that sometimes it’s best to stop things when they’re perfect rather than race on and watch them sour.” – 136. lpp.

“I suspect we have first selves and second selves and perhaps third, fourth, and fifth selves and many more in between.” – 182. lpp.

“But how many of us ever make time to know who our parents really were? How many sunken layers deep are those we thought we knew simply because we loved them?” – 201. lpp.

“…by the time we learn to live, it’s already too late.” – 210. lpp.

“No one ever went bankrupt borrowing someone else’s pleasure.” – 222. lpp.

“If the music doesn’t change you, dear friend, it should at least remind you of something profoundly yours that you’ve probably lost track of but that actually never went away and still answers when beckoned by the right notes, like a spirit gently roused from a prolonged slumber with the right touch of a finger and the right silence between the notes.” – 231. lpp.

“”I must be happy,” I said. “Or it’s too much prosecco.” – 235. lpp

“…time is always the price we pay for the unlived life.” – 254. lpp.

Starp citu, oficiāli apstiprināts, ka arī šī grāmata tiks iemūžināta filmā un tajā mēs satiksim jau Call Me By Your Name ekranizācijā iemīļotos aktierus: Timotiju Šalamē Elio lomā, Ārmiju Hammeru Olivera lomā, Maiklu Stūlbergu Samuela lomā, bet režisora krēslā atkal sēdīsies Luka Gvadanjīno.

GRĀMATAS VĒRTĒJUMS: 8,5/10

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